sunflower.

I have been mia-ing for god knows when. Been busy well, with life basically. I turned 21 years, we turned 1/2 a year. Lose some people, gain some people. Work was endless fun and now its the holidays break.

I'm going Bangkok this coming December with kental, rabz and mat. I'm so looking forward to it, man. I've been checking out the places of interest and of course, the shopping areas. I'm so going to shop till I drop and capture a lot of photos there and maybe snapped a photo of kental sleeping and videotaping him snoring. =X,oops. You know I still love you right.

My twenty one was awesome, I couldn't have ask for more. My parents surprised me with presents and we went to carousel to celebrate my birthday. Turning 21 at the stroke of midnight with my friends was great. Kental surprised me with a sunflower at my house gate on the morning of my birthday. I just spend the whole day with him. He ended my birthday with more than I can have ask for. Thank you love. =D

Anyways, kental is going to pop in 2 weeks times. I so can't wait for it maybe I'm more excited for it than him. lol. NS has definitely taken a toll on us, only god knows how hard it is. lol.

We've turned half a year old, and I admit, I wasn't the best company and you weren't either, heh, but those imperfections of yours made me fall in love with you even more. I love your nonsensical faces when we are taking photos together, your humor, your stupid farts anywhere everywhere ( hah! ), your thinking of yourself being 'hot', your pet names for me for eg, baboon. GRRR, you in your army uniform (kind of turns me on :p ), your metal braces, your independence/confidence, your ability to make me laugh even how upset I am with you. Most importantly, I love your heart, baby. =D

Oh, onto some good news, I've passed both my BTT and FTT =DD, so now I have to focus on my practical driving in the circuit and outside. Ever since, I drove outside, I'm so psyched in wanting to pass my TP. Insya Allah, next year, I will get my license. That will be my number 1 goal for now! =D

Been moody lately, maybe, because its the time of the month again. Off to satisfy my cravings of waffles and chocolate now. yum yum.

wreck

An emotional wreck.
Busy busy with everything else.
Invisible to the naked eye.
Mind tangled up, so messed up.
Decisions, decisions to be made.
Need, need, I repeat again, need to open up.
Pushing away those who cares.
Hurting them along the way.
Taking a toll on everything.
Saying goodbye seems like a good idea, for now.

braces.

Baby have finally gotten his braces. He looks like a total geek but still he is my kental geek. haha. Anyways, these past few weeks, there were some misunderstandings between 2 of my friends that I have to step in that is to confront them. Hopefully, everything is alright now and that they have forgiven each other and learn from it.
SOOO, haja has finally gotten a girlfriend! hah. And the way he asked the girl to be his is SO bollywood. haha. But anywho, I'm happy for you. =D And he got through the MJ's impersonation contest. He did a brilliant job dancing. So proud of him! Zima also joined the Young designer's competition and she got through the semi finals with Erah. I wish them all the best. =))

I've been busy with work nowadays. With the book check, catching the students for their works, marking their MASTERPIECES (lol!), designing for the school's poster and NDP brochure. I can't wait for the 1 week september holiday! I will definitely catch up on my sleep for that entire week.

Wan got his NS enlistment letter and he's going in less that a month. I'm sooo going to miss him terribly but the sooner he go in, the faster he finished his NS. =D Anyways, I miss my cousin so much! I wonder when is she free from her busy schedule to date me. (hinting you, RABS =P)

Me and Wan went to the Zoo the other day. It was supposed to be a surprise treat from me as he really wanted to go to the zoo badly to see his relatives aka Baboons and Orang utan. =P It was fun fun fun. Actually, whenever he is around, it will be fun. =D I hope you like the treat, baby. (no obligations, you MUST love the treat. =P) So, now I'm waiting for my B & J ice cream. heh. :X

Along has finally gotten engaged! WEE, so happy for him. He looks very happy and excited that day. =D Kak Diana gave him alot of stuffs for the engagement. I can feel how much Kak Diana loves him. I cant wait for them to get married which would be either next year or in 2 years time. =D

Off now to eat my breakfast. Ta ta. =D

waves.

Few weeks ago, got a call from a past. It was sudden but whatever it is, I am over and done with that part of my life. Nonetheless, I do appreciate his call and I hope he is feeling better now.

Anyways, this whole week was madness fun hanging out with my friends and of course, wan. I am actually glad that wan can mingle well with my friends. And that my friends all approve of him, so its a good sign. =D As usual, we went to sheesha and just spurts out nonsense stuffs. That particular day, Farid wore this chain shirt thingy, and I was very intrigued with that shirt that I kept asking him questions about it. HAHA. Ooo, Zima had her first puff of sheesha that day and she kind of liked it. Oh gosh. haha. I hope she won't get addicted to it like how addicted I am to it. haha. This friday, might have another sheesha session. Farid, better come, he's my FASCINATION. HAHAHAHA! =D

Had a lazy date with Wan too. We went to starbucks to disturb each other and we took alot of stupid continous photos of us. And oh gosh, that guy can make me laugh until I cry. I think I have abs from laughing at all his merepekness and kentalness and slengerness. haha.

Went to sentosa with zima and her friend, shad and of course, WAN. hah. As per usual, it rained whenever zima is in sentosa. hehe. =X Maybe next time, I plan the sentosa outing okay, zima. hehe. But it was fun anyway as my BOYFRIEND was there. hahha. (hadtoemphasiseonthatorelsehemarahme,haha) He made us laugh with his stupid lame jokes again! haha. And I accidentally smacked his erhem erhem. OOPPSIE, my bet. haha. =P

Went to waves yesterday, and now I have mosquito bites all over my legs. Its so BLOODY red and big. GRRR. I think I should take a photo of it and post it. Wannnn, I still want to eat your flavour of B&J ice cream. hehe. This time, I win the bet, and you blanja okay. hehehe. Oh, I so cant wait for next monday, babyy. Thanks for the gold class harry potter. =DDD

Another shopping trip with Zimz tomorrow. Wee, Im itching to pierce my ear and maybe stocked up on my bras and panties. Wahahaha.

OMFG, wan is making me laugh like mad in MSN through our webcams. I think I should post the photo up here. HAHAHAHAHA. Oh gosh, no wonder I'm falling head over heels for him. haha.

Off to get ready for work tomorrow. Goodnight people. =D

Zimz - What the fuck is up between you and you know who? WAHAHHA. As long as you're happy and you know your limits. =D And please be a bitch to guys okay. hehe. I think you know what I mean. hahaha. =D

snorkel.

My June holiday is almost over and tomorrow I'm going to start slaving for MOE again. My June holiday was awesome! I went to Phuket which was breathtakingly beautiful. The people, the scenery, it was like out of a postcard literally. I enjoyed myself there and I would definitely like to go back there again.
Celebrated Kaka's birthday but it was belated as he was in Thailand during his birthday, The ice cream cake was so delicious, I want more. haha.
Two of my colleagues had their last day of work last month. It was sad as they were my kakis. heh. I will definitely miss them when work starts tomorrow. =(
Went out on dates with my kental guy. =D He is officially my movie buddy. And he promised to treat me gold class for Harry Potter and Half Blood Prince. Weee. Heart heart you. =D July July! heh.
Zima has OFFICIALLY graduated from NAFA! So proud of her. All her hard work has finally pay off and kudos to her amazing collection. She invited me to her fashion grad show, and I was totally in awed with all the collections that walked down the runway. And not to forget, the male models are jaw dropping gorgeous. hah. And, zimzz, may I borrow your grey leggings? hehe. I LOVE IT, okay. heh.
And my dear cousin turned TWENTY ONE! She's officially legal for anything. WOO. Celebrated her birthday with her, had spoilers because of these two guys. (coughcough, wanandyc, hah). Went to sleepover her house, after. But overall, it was fun hanging out and just talking about random stuffs. =D
Soooo this two stooges, Farid and Haja keep telling me that they wanted to meet me before I fly off to Phuket but it was always cancelled, so the other day, AFTER I got back from Phuket, me and zima went to meet up with them, FINALLY! hah. We went to accompany them to the dance studio at Arab St. Watching them dance, made me want to kick off my flats and dance together with them. heh. After the dance practice, we went to haji lane to have our late late dinner and sheesha. It was fun fun fun. And I really think Haja was damn high on that night. He was like leaning and putting his hands all over Zima. hahahahaha. Haja haja.
Anyways, I LOVE Marsha's house. The location, the environment. GRR, I'm so jealous. hah. Shopping with her was fun the other day. We were finding for new dresses to wear to a prize giving ceremony tomorrow. I so can't wait. =D
Yesterday was supposed to go bowling with Wan, but all the bowling centres are FULL! We were disappointed as we really wanted to bowl. Then end up, we went sheesha and his friends came over too.
And today was actually my rest day as tomorrow is work (killme). BUT, that guy named wan (hah) called me around 130 saying that his friend had an extra ticket to Transformers 2 which was at 3. So.I literally rushed from Cck all the way to Suntec. It was not too bad, I was 15 minutes late. hah. The movie was good but I still prefer the first one. We watched with hardi and his on and off gf, atikah (haha) and his friend Rizzal, (Ithinkthathisname). lol. So now, I want to rest and get mentally ready for work tomorrow. GRR, I still want more holidays. haha.

Zimz - I can't wait to meet you on Friday to gossip and introduce my bf, who you actually have met before. hahhaha.
Rabz - Driving driving driving. woooo. hehe. Tuesday baby. =D

inhale.

I think I'm feeling those feelings again. And I'm scared out of my mind to fall again. As I know how the after effects feel like. But my motto in life is, WHY THE HELL NOT. or maybe I inhaled too much while sheeshaing just now that my head is feeling light headed now and I'm rambling shits. But fuck cares, I think I'm having major feelings for him and I can't hide it anymore. Oh gosh, his merepekness and the ability to make me laugh on any fucking thing makes me go giddy for him. hah. And he's different from other guys I dated, in terms of character wise. A breathe of fresh air, I might say. heh. I think you all get the drift that I'm UN single. I'm actually shocked at myself as I only knew him, like what less than a month, and we are together. I have no idea why but we just clicked. In every thing. heh. Those tingling feelings (perhaps its just the first few months, every rship is) but heck, I love that feeling. And I really wish, it will stay. But for now, I want to take it slow and inhale every little thing that we do. And not repeat the mistakes I did from my past rships. Lessons learnt, fana.

Anyways, I am so tired. Been going out every single day for the past week, and my bed is calling me. I will update more tomorrow with photos. WOO, from phuket and everything else. So good nite blogging world. =D

cats.

Time for an update, people. Many things happen this past few weeks. First thing first, CATS was fuckinglyawesometastic. I do hope Rabz had a good time as it was her ADVANCE birthday present. heh. It ended quite late but we still hang around esplanade till 1 plus with Wan even though Rabz had work the next day. heh. Watched Xmen with Wan last week. The movie was okay, the duration was kind of short, need more of Gambit. wahaha. But the whole day was fun with my merepek man. hehe. Anyways, I'm still undecided as single or Un-single as I LOVE being single and independent but Wan might change my outlook of being single. wahaha. :X

Ooooo, I can't wait for June! I'm going to Phuket, baby. =DD AND, Bali is SO ON! Wooohooo. =D Anyone want to join us to Bali? heh. Speaking of holidays, I have to buy a luggage, my old one has been disposed. Preferably, billabong or volcom but I will see tomorrow when I go shopping with Rabz and Wan. =D

Oh, my observation went WELL! I'm kind of proud of myself to be able to overcome it. =D Pat on the back. hehe. =D And so now, all I'm waiting is to go to NIE, hopefully, the July intake, Insya Allah.

I have to get ready to go to Rabz house and off to her NGEE ANN for her convocation. FINALLY, her graduation. I'm so damn proud of her! Congrats, love! =D Hugs and Kisses. Anyways, you and bude, erhem erhem. hehe. =X

Rabz, only you know. =D